Saturday, October 10, 2009

Aspirations and disappointments




~ After All | Collective Soul ~


Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations.
I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty,
believe in them, and try to follow where they lead.


Louisa May Alcott





It is amazing how close my
 horoscopes parallel my life!



October 10, 2009
A Higher Perspective
Leo Daily Horoscope


You may feel depressed and blocked today, which could cause you to feel trapped in your circumstances. You may feel that you have limited options, and you could find yourself struggling to find a solution to a problem. If you can lift your focus above your feelings, you should be able to see your situation more clearly and come up with a creative solution. Simply set aside time to be alone and release any tension from your mind and body. Empty your mind of all thoughts, and imagine your consciousness lifting above your body. Bring to mind a situation that could benefit from your insight today, and review it from this heightened sense of awareness. You may be able to see solutions that had previously eluded you or gain a clearer perspective as you see a situation in a new light.

Choosing to see challenging situations from a different perspective can open our minds to new possibilities and solutions. It is easy to become blinded by our situation when we are enmeshed in the struggle to figure it out. If we can instead lift our focus higher and choose a different perspective, we can gain a greater sense of clarity about our circumstances. With our enhanced awareness, we are able to receive insights regarding different actions we could take or come up with creative solutions to problems. By lifting your awareness above your challenges today, you will be able to see your situation clearly and come up with exciting new possibilities.






For the second time he has left me for no good reason . . . always within a month. So much for forever . . . again.


I should be strong, he says . . . I should be understanding of his "moods".

What about my "moods"? What about my feelings?

His insensitivity went too far when he announced he was leaving and not sure when (or if) he would be returning on the anniversary of JR's death . . . one of the worse emotional days for me every year.

He's pushing me away and I can only come to the conclusion that he doesn't really love me.


Today I'm grateful that I found love again . . . it showed me that I can, even though it appears that things will not work out. I got a taste of love and affection that has been missing in my life for the past 7 years.

I'm grateful for the realization that I need to get on with my life . . . perhaps I would not have come to this place without him.


I'm grateful for the grace of God which strengthens me . . . and will continue to strengthen me as the days become harder to deal with and realizing that yet another dream has died. 


I need strength to endure the deaths that continue to surround me . . . not only the death of people, but the death of love, the death of dreams, etc.

I will survive . . . I am determined to be happy again . . . and I will be :)


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