About Me/My Blog





Who am I?

Restless romantic soul with a gentle spirit colliding with the mystery of full moon madness is the best way I've been able to describe myself in words.






Unexpected life changes came my way in 2002 when my young husband suddenly passed away.  I’ve had all this time to contemplate life . . . what the really important things are and what I want for the rest of my life. The conclusion I came to is summed up in three little words . . .

PEACE, LOVE, HAPPINESS

My blog is an exploration of those three words with their differing meanings and finding that place in life that is filled with peace, love and happiness all at one time.

A new adventure began for me as a beautiful life abruptly ended. One of life’s ironies is that most people don’t appreciate or even know what they have until it is gone. Another irony of life is knowing that everything happens for a reason and part of the adventure is finding the good in bad times.

I’m a widow on my journey back to a “normal” life. It is difficult to actually define “normal” except to say that it is the beautiful emotion that comes from the harmony of peace, love and happiness.

A new chapter in my journey began when The Captain stepped into my life . . . 
starting over again with my new love . . . and I am now his wife. :)


Another life adventure ended for me when The Captain passed away in 2023.  The adventure came with its challenges, but they were also life lessons that we learn along the way.  Many are painful, some are joyous.  We just have to live with all of them and attempt to keep our balance.  It hasn't always been easy for me, but with God by my side, I make it through one moment at a time.  There were times I thought I was getting to the "normal" place in my life, but I never really got there completely.

My current life is nowhere near normal, but it has become tolerable and changes every day.  It is like the roller coaster I like to compare my life to that never wants to stop.  I'm beginning to think I will never see "normal" again, but I do have awesome memories that I try to dwell on.


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