Hopes, peace and contentment

That little voice in my head has been speaking to me and through feeling grateful again, I have regained hope for the future.  It isn't hope for anything in particular, just peace and contentment.  In my younger days, when I aspired to one thing or another, I didn't have time to be grateful...

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Love Stays

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I was never ready for you to leave

 My normal grief feels like all of the above at the same time.It happened so fast.On that morning, I woke up and was startled to see the far away look in his eyes.  It seemed to me so strange that he was normal the night before, although I felt something was off for a few days.  One of...

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The Lunacy of Grief Stages

 The changes can be horrific from one day to the next, leaving the feeling of being on a roller coaster.  They can also make you feel like you are actually losing your mind while knowing you are sane.What really makes me feel crazy is the shift from surviving the grief to overwhelming sadness...

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Solitude and Being A Hermit

 I choose to be what so many people describe as being a "hermit."  For now, it is what is a comfortable lifestyle for me as I contemplate the rest of my life . . . again. It is important for me and necessary for my healing to write honestly about these past months without going into major...

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Coping with death and grief amid a senseless tragedy

"Each of us is more than capable of helping the world, despite our fears and limitations and the uncertainty that holds us back. It is commonly accepted that it is impossible to make a difference without unlimited funding or free time, yet most healing, cleansing, and spreading of joy is accomplished...

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Grief: How We Survive

I could have written this poem . . .  it perfectly describes how we survive grief. Mark Rickerby wrote this poem following the death of his brother: If we are fortunate, we are given a warning. If not, there is only the sudden horror, the wrench of being torn apart; of being...

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Just One More Day

There are times my thoughts go to having one more day with the loved ones who have left my life.  It never gets to the point of pondering the question "what would I say" and how would I feel in the end.   Would I go through grief of this person leaving my life again? Would it bring...

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The Waves of Grief

It hasn't been a good time.  Sometimes life will throw some unpleasant stuff our way.  At times we go through it with flying colors, unscathed emotionally. Other times it stops us in our tracks and just doing normal, routine things are a big chore. The other night everything got to...

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Depression and Suicide

This post is dedicated to Robin Williams . . . may he rest in peace According to Wikipedia, "depression is a mental disorder characterized by a pervasive and persistent low mood that is accompanied by low self-esteem and by a loss of interest or pleasure in normally enjoyable activities....

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A message to heaven's gate . . . Happy Anniversary

It doesn't seem like it has been 34 years since JR and I took our vows after knowing each other six months.  Everyone thought we were crazy. It is so true that life is but a blink of an eye.  The day is so vivid in my mind as if it were yesterday, but it was a lifetime ago.  God...

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What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger?

Suffering has been stronger than all other teaching, and has taught me to understand what your heart used to be. I have been bent and broken, but - I hope - into a better shape. --Charles Dickens WOW, that quote speaks volumes to me and reminds me of another quote . . . "What doesn't...

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The Monsters in the Closet

Pay attention to your emotions "Emotions are the next frontier to be understood and conquered. To manage our emotions is not to drug them or suppress them, but to understand them so that we can intelligently direct our emotional energies and intentions.... It's time for human beings to grow...

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Back To You

Like a star that guides a ship across the ocean that's how your love will take me home back to you And if I wish upon that star someday I'll be where you are I know that day is coming soon I'm coming back to you. lyrics from the song Back to You/Bryan Adams Originally posted on Yahoo 360 September...

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