Life, dreams and gratitude

 The tragic fires in California this past week have given me so much to think about life, hopes and dreams and gratitude.  In the course of life, going after our hopes and dreams or experiencing difficult life circumstances, we sometimes get overwhelmed and forget to be grateful.  It...

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Life's Purpose

 "Learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself, and know that everything in life has purpose. There are no mistakes, no coincidences, all events are blessings given to us to learn from." ~ Elisabeth Kubler-RossI'm having a problem with this and feeling so lost. The more I think about...

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Long Darkness

 Nothing has been as it seems, or has it?Some lines from a movie I recently saw really hit home with me and put the past year into a weird perspective.  "I was sleeping peacefully in the midst of a long darkness.  It is good to sleep when you can't find the answers so I just...

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Simple

 Memories are the best things in life.  At this time I feel they are all I have left, although I know that is not true.  Bad grief phases make me have those awful feelings, but also make me so grateful for those great memories.I have not been able to pick myself up properly since the...

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Holiday Blues

Another trigger day, actually a double trigger day, JR's birthday.  This is the end of trigger days for a while thank God and I am already feeling better.  It is all a mindset.In the past, I loved holidays, they were so special.  Now they are memories of special days.  In my...

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Loud Silence

 It has been a weird time.  Yes, the silence is loud.  Sometimes it is hard to breathe.  I need to write and let this out, but I really don't know what to say.  I'm enjoying being alone in my silence, but it would be great if he was here with me.  Only him.  God knows...

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Worth It

 I HAVE NOTHING TO ...

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Don't give up now

 But really, do I have a choice?I guess it was his birthday, a trigger day that started me on the roller coaster again.  Just when I was starting to feel better.I'm so tired of feeling better only to slip back into this funky phase of grief.  The good thing is I have writing about it...

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Joyful Melody of Life

 I've started listening to music regularly as I did in "normal times."  Music has been a part of life since I was a little girl enjoying the radio being on day and night by my family.  Songs have meaning to me as far as lyrics and bringing back memories.  It is strange how a song...

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Future Without Fear?

Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Keep faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and never doubt your beliefs. Life is wonderful if you know how to live it. SourceThere is a line in that quote . . . "Life is wonderful...

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Who do you think you are?

As I continue to transfer my blog posts from an older blog, I am reminded that you must first walk through the fire before you get to that peaceful place in life. NEVER GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS! "The race is on to get out of the bottom, The top is high so your roots are forgotten, Giving...

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Endings Become Beginnings

"Endings became beginnings without my expressed permission. ‘Take that’, it said." Excerpt from "A Widows Dream" which is included in this post  Surviving the loss of a spouse is an emotional journey.  The quote I opened this post with tells it all.  Endings become...

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Reflection of Life

"Reflection is one of the most underused yet powerful tools for success." Richard Carlson Since Hurricane Irma decided to pick on our house and drop a tree on it, being suddenly homeless without a home to go to has forced me to look back and reflect on my life. Of course there...

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Fate, destiny and being alone

The following post was written at a time of missing JR so bad, feeling so alone, but having the faith that I would find love again, I was ready . . . I could feel my new love and that is so very special . . . a confirmation that you know that you know and have no doubt about your feelings, holding...

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Getting the groove back

    Get serious with your life?  Really? Seriously, I still don't have a complete grasp of what I want to do when I grow up.  The big picture is a lot more focused, however, there is so much in between getting there and here in the today. Although I had joined the...

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