I was never ready for you to leave

 My normal grief feels like all of the above at the same time.It happened so fast.On that morning, I woke up and was startled to see the far away look in his eyes.  It seemed to me so strange that he was normal the night before, although I felt something was off for a few days.  One of...

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The Lunacy of Grief Stages

 The changes can be horrific from one day to the next, leaving the feeling of being on a roller coaster.  They can also make you feel like you are actually losing your mind while knowing you are sane.What really makes me feel crazy is the shift from surviving the grief to overwhelming sadness...

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Change a situation or change ourselves?

"When we are no longer able to change a situation,  we are challenged to change ourselves." Viktor Frankl Don't you sometimes wish you had a magic wand to change the situation you find yourself in?  If only . . . it would be a great selling item on eBay for sure! We moved...

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Understanding the source

Taking time to understand the source of our emotions can help us resolve them and regain our centered state of mind. Feelings of confusion or uncertainty are often an indication of unresolved conflict within us.  If we simply turn within and begin exploring these feelings in more detail,...

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Fear and Emotional Honesty

It is sad to live in a world where honesty is feared.  People are nosy by nature and always want to know "why" for so many things.  The tendency to pry into the life of one who is not so easy to get close to is a sure way to make them run away and never come back. What does that...

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I am who I am!

I am who I am, and that is all I need to be. I've actually liked myself in certain times of my life.   The rest of my life I have hated myself.  In my realization of self-hate after JR died, I had to first admit to myself that the self-hate existed and then forgive myself,...

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Readdressing an old struggle

Today The Captain and I attended a "Quit Smoking" workshop and I am officially a non-smoker again.  He is on Day #19 since he was ready to stop before I was.  We are on our way to one of my biggest dreams, to be a non-smoker again. Last time I quit was for two years and I felt wonderful...

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Putting perfectionism into perspective

Through the years, I've been able to shed some of the stereotypical traits of a perfectionist, but it has been a long journey that took me through bouts of depression. What I am about to say is going to come off sounding awful, but it is honest.  I could care less what others think...

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The spirit of love

How important is it to be "right"? When ego takes over in our relationships over something said or done by another person that we don't agree with, the focus turns from the spirit of love to the angry need to be right. Of course it depends on the situation, but isn't it better to just let...

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It's Always Something

It's always something Roseanne Roseannadanna (Gilda Radner's SNL character) The following post is from one of my older blogs that I'm still transferring to this one. As I was going through some old posts to transfer over, it occurred to me that my life has come full circle . ....

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