A Love That Lives

My sweet Kiki and the cherished memories of her presence in my life is a treasured and precious gift.  This month I celebrate her birth month.  She would have been 16 years old.I miss her so much.  My heart is broken . . .A Love That LivesWhen you’ve loved a dog until the end,You’ve...

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A Heavy Heart

The holidays are hitting me harder than usual this year.  I know it is the recent decision to put my sweet fur baby Kiki to sleep a month or so ago.  I miss her terribly and feel so much guilt since I had to sign that damn paper.  It has compounded the loss of two husbands.  The...

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When your dog is your soulmate

 As I have grieved my fur baby Kiki, I have sought out social media forums and communities dedicated to help grievers cope with that terrible phase in their life.  It is important to surround yourself with those who have and are walking the same journey, just wanting to find peace.  Below...

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Grief is a strange journey

 I've been going through another grief journey that has knocked me down pretty hard. Losing a pet is an indescribable grief.In order to make a real attempt of going through this loss better than the losses of two husbands, I have discovered and remember how different the feelings are when it is...

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The difficulty of grieving

Someone in a group I belong to told me that I'm in the "deep of grief" and I know that the way grief manifests itself changes with time.  But it never ever goes away.My two recent losses, The Captain and my precious little Kiki were my immediate family that I lived with and loved day after day. ...

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Run free little girl

 As Kiki got older, I tried to protect myself from this time I am going through.No matter what the vet told me, I was not convinced that she was as sick as he said.  She still did her cute little dance when it was time to eat like she always did, like a healthy dog at almost 16 years old.My...

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Dark Silence

 As a person who has gone to sleep watching television forever  because I hate silence and am especially fearful of darkness, I was not in the best frame of mind with Hurricane Milton taking out my electricity before the storm even started and didn't come back on for three or four days later. ...

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Disappointment, truth and lies

 People in general have disappointed me more than usual lately.  I have written about the pharmacy that continues to mistreat their clients.  It isn't just me.  They finally gave me one of the medications that make my life more bearable, however, they gave me a month's worth but...

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Loss of a Pet

A house is certainly not a home without a dog.  I know this from a very painful experience. After my sweet Betsy passed away, it took me years to adopt another dog.  It was the biggest mistake I ever made, but I only realized it when we adopted Kiki after the Captain and I got married. ...

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Pet Grief

When I lost my sweet Betsy, the grief was as overwhelming as losing a member of the family.  To make matters worse, it was during the Christmas season. That was back in 1999, the end of a decade and the end of one of the most treasured relationships in my life. The loss of a pet can be devastating...

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When joy is gone

Joy is gone from our hearts;  our dancing has turned to mourning. Lamentations 5:15 I will banish from them the sounds of joy and gladness, the voices of bride and bridegroom, the sound of millstones and the light of the lamp. Jeremiah 25:10 "When you've seen...

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Pets are so cool

Lately I've been thinking about how important having a pet is.  I recently wrote about the day that Buddy the dog ran away and how heartbroken I was on many levels.  The part that really made me sad was the resulting fear of dogs after he bit me.   It wasn't until I read the following...

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Howl at the moon!

There are lazy days like today, when I like to go back through my old blogs and journal entries to get a feel for a moment in time when life was not so great.  It makes me feel so grateful for the life changes I have made and so appreciative of my new little family.   When I recollect...

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