A Heavy Heart

The holidays are hitting me harder than usual this year.  I know it is the recent decision to put my sweet fur baby Kiki to sleep a month or so ago.  I miss her terribly and feel so much guilt since I had to sign that damn paper.  It has compounded the loss of two husbands.  The...

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When your dog is your soulmate

 As I have grieved my fur baby Kiki, I have sought out social media forums and communities dedicated to help grievers cope with that terrible phase in their life.  It is important to surround yourself with those who have and are walking the same journey, just wanting to find peace.  Below...

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Grief is a strange journey

 I've been going through another grief journey that has knocked me down pretty hard. Losing a pet is an indescribable grief.In order to make a real attempt of going through this loss better than the losses of two husbands, I have discovered and remember how different the feelings are when it is...

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The difficulty of grieving

Someone in a group I belong to told me that I'm in the "deep of grief" and I know that the way grief manifests itself changes with time.  But it never ever goes away.My two recent losses, The Captain and my precious little Kiki were my immediate family that I lived with and loved day after day. ...

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Run free little girl

 As Kiki got older, I tried to protect myself from this time I am going through.No matter what the vet told me, I was not convinced that she was as sick as he said.  She still did her cute little dance when it was time to eat like she always did, like a healthy dog at almost 16 years old.My...

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Howl at the moon!

There are lazy days like today, when I like to go back through my old blogs and journal entries to get a feel for a moment in time when life was not so great.  It makes me feel so grateful for the life changes I have made and so appreciative of my new little family.   When I recollect...

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