Have you ever felt an intense and passionate love for someone that seemed to be a gift from God?
There is nothing like it in the whole world. Although it feels like a gift, the object of your desire may have no idea how you feel because it is nothing that someone can intentionally give you. It is what it is and purely natural. And the person feeling the "love" can't make themselves feel it . . . it just is.
It may not be love at all, but this feeling for another person is more like magic. This magic can actually make your heart skip a beat, feel like you are floating in the clouds and you truly believe you are in love. You could possibly be falling in love and perhaps "the falling" is actually more magical than being in love itself.
All these thoughts came rushing to me as I thought of the first days of meeting The Captain online. I was so taken by him with his charismatic and charming personality that I did not want to see a photo of him. We spoke on the phone and his voice was music to my ears. I felt so strange to feel so strongly about someone I had never seen or touched. But my senses felt his magic.
I prayed that this was not an ugly man that had captured my heart so intensely since my heart had previously been taken only by men I was strongly attracted to physically. Shallow and too picky, I know. But I was being taught a different way of falling in love and it was blind faith.
It was one of the best times of my life.
When you meet someone online, you really have no idea who they are or what they really look like. If they have a photo, it could possibly not be the person you are interacting with, but someone else the person wants you to think they are.
Unfortunately that deception happens often online. The person resides in your computer or phone, an image in your mind that your heart interprets what it wants, but really is not real until you are eye to eye with the person.
In my case with The Captain, he made my heart skip a beat with his charming personality, but when I finally saw a photo of him and ultimately met him in person, my prayers had been answered and I had been falling in love with a man whose appearance I was strongly attracted to . . . to the point that I didn't know if I was coming or going. What a feeling!
He gave me a gift I will never forget and he lives in my heart forever. RIP captblackeagle, I will love you forever. Miss you so much, my heart is still broken and always will be.
Love your loved ones like there is no tomorrow . . . there may not be.
