Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Courage

Courage is the greatest of all the virtues. Because if you haven’t courage, you may not have an opportunity to use any of the others. Samuel Johnson There have been days when getting out of bed took courage. In my greatest depths of depression, my energy was totally sapped . . . it will...
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Sunday, March 29, 2009

Empty words

“Love is not in the word, but in the proof of action.” Author unknown It amazes me that I forgot about one of the most absurd relationships I’ve ever had in my life . . . until I read this entry from back in 2007. The emotions of the situation and the way I handled it have come...
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Saturday, March 28, 2009

Emotional distance

It doesn’t matter how far apart we are; what matters is how close we stay There is distance that is measured in miles, then there is emotional distance I’ve experienced closeness from across the world that was stronger than that which was in my face . . . I’ve also experienced the loss...
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Thursday, March 26, 2009

Don't go there

Unless you have gone through a depression or have faced a time in your life that seemed hopeless, you can’t relate to the elation one feels when those feelings have lifted, when your mind, body and soul are no longer dwelling in the depths of despair, but rather in the hope of faith and peace. ...
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Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Don't look back in anger

Anger could be defined as an emotional state that varies in intensity from mild irritation to intense fury and rage. The degree of that intensity depends on our ability to control the anger. We can take those intense emotions and use them in a positive or negative way, learn from it and...
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009

The fine line between love and hate

“We loathe ourselves for living and lying every day in little ways that devalue and dishonor us” Sarah Ban Breathnach, Something More All I can say is that I’m very glad to be getting past the phase of hating myself. What a relief it was to give myself permission to stop trying to...
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Sunday, March 22, 2009

Love and appreciation

We don’t know what we’ve gotUntil we lose itBut it’s also trueThat we don’t know what we’vebeen missing until it arrives Don’t let a day go by without telling that special person in your life you love them with all your heart because they could be suddenly gone I’m a widow who speaks from experience and...
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Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Trust

Trust . . . a firm belief or confidence in the honesty and reliability of another person . . . the thing that bonds couples together to help create a healthy relationship between two committed people. In my opinion, there is nothing like that critical bond between two people . . . the warm...
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Love . . . ageless and evergreen

“Like a rose under the April snow I was always certain love would grow Love . . . ageless and evergreen Seldom seen by two” lyrics from the song Evergreen - Barbra Streisand Many people live and die a full life, never feeling the emotions of this song. As I listened to this song today,...
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Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Finding your pace

My pace changes with my life circumstances, although I prefer a slower pace that is peaceful and harmonious. On the other hand, I loved the fast pace of the corporate world as an executive assistant. At this time of my life, I would call my pace “go with the flow” as I go back and forth through...
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Monday, March 16, 2009

Constant craving

Even through the darkest phaseBe it thick or thinAlways someone marches braveHere beneath my skin Constant cravingHas always been Maybe a great magnet pullsAll souls towards truthOr maybe it is life itselfThat feeds wisdomTo its youth Constant cravingHas always been Lyrics from the song Constant...
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Saturday, March 14, 2009

Finding a purpose

I’m still searching for that feeling of purposein my life, you know, the one where youcan hardly wait to get up in the morning. That feeling is my measurement of finding purpose in life . . . it means total happiness for me and the peace that comes from that kind of happiness. I’ve found that...
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Friday, March 13, 2009

Peace come to my rescue

Bad times always bring up other bad times for me. In many ways, it is one of my subconscious mind’s defense mechanisms, showing me a time I experienced similar emotions that I made it through, ultimately feeling peace in my life again . . . and not feeling anger towards God. It is also another...
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Thursday, March 12, 2009

Burned out or slightly charred?

My brother was rushed to the hospital with chest pains last night . . . my mom ran off with my sister-in-law to Tallahassee where he lives and works during the week.  My mom recently had a heart attack . . . of course, I worry about her. Although I’m a Christian with a positive attitude...
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Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Forgiveness

Sometimes the bad feelings we are holding inside has to do with forgiveness. Have you ever harbored unforgiveness? You know the feeling I am talking about if you have. I wrote the following post in September 2007 . . . it was another period of contemplation where I feel I experienced the...
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