"Our emotions color our lives with varying palettes. Sometimes we feel a strong emotion in reaction to something that has happened, but emotions also visit us seemingly out of the blue, flooding us unexpectedly with joy or grief or melancholy. Like the weather, they come and go, influencing our mental state with their particular vibration. Sometimes a difficult emotion hangs around longer than we would like, and we begin to wonder when it will release its hold on us. This is often true of grief stemming from loss, for example, or lingering anger over a past event."
Excerpt from How Long? by Madisyn Taylor of DailyOM.com
Grief has never released its hold on me and I don't think it ever will.
The emotions started when my Nana died, who was more like a mother to me. It has been decades and I am still haunted by the grief like it was yesterday. JR's death devastated me. I've since lost several best friends and close family members. Each death deepens the emotional hold of grief on me.
It feels like my heart is holding time in a bottle.
The Christmas holidays somehow releases streams of emotion that I can't control. On the other hand, the memories are so very treasured. I fully allow myself to feel the emotion.
The emotional healing has yet to reach me.
The featured article "How Long" discusses these feelings and emotional healing. Check it out if you can relate.