Because of impatience we were driven out of Paradise,
because of impatience we cannot return.”
Auden, W. H.
The noun has 3 meanings:
Meaning #1: a lack of patience; irritation with anything that causes delay
Synonym: restlessness
Meaning #2: a restless desire for change and excitement
Meaning #3: a dislike of anything that causes delay
Meaning #1: a lack of patience; irritation with anything that causes delay
Synonym: restlessness
Meaning #2: a restless desire for change and excitement
Meaning #3: a dislike of anything that causes delay
If I sound like a broken record, it is because the record is stuck on the same song and plays on a continuous loop. That is what life has felt like since our well water system broke down . . . we are in the midst of Week #4.
What came to mind was a post I wrote many years ago on my birthday. I had the same restless impatience to get on with my life in a meaningful way, still not completely happy with myself and the progress I had made up to that point.
For totally different reasons, the emotion felt is best described as a "raging sense of powerlessness" . . . in other words, restlessness, anxiety and extreme impatience. Obviously, from my birthday horoscope thingie on the following post, it is what is to be expected of myself . . . it is written in the stars!
In present time, there are many factors, however, the one that really hits home is "irritation with anything that causes delay". The only thing that I have wanted to hear these past weeks is that "we have running water again."
It is a quality of life kind of thing.
The long awaited words have not come . . . only to be replaced by "well, this latest experiment has not worked." Actually I could tell from The Captain's face, he didn't need to even say the words. The poor guy has so much patience, perseverance and faith like I have never seen in my life. He has been determined to save us a couple thousand dollars or so.
He's my hero!
My irritation and bad feelings
have nothing to do with him!
As it turns out, he has figured out what the problem is, we have the money to fix it and in a few days, we should have running water again.
The changes I have gone through in these few weeks have amazed me. I have written about them and none too happy with myself for being so impatient.
Having said that . . . my behavior and attitude has been much better than I ever expected for myself. For me, exceeding my own expectations is an amazing thing since I am always so rough on myself.
Everything in life happens for a reason!
The following post found me with that same feeling since I could see life passing me by as I became another year older . . .
The following post was
originally published
on August 14, 2008
Today is my birthday . . . ok, hence the raging sense of powerlessness . . . becoming a year older is not a happy thought as it was when I was a teenager and wanted so bad to be an adult. I'm exhibiting "pewter power" and allowing my silver streaks to show . . . an all too visual reminder of becoming older.
Whatever . . . here is the meaning of my birthdate and there is the gruesome twosome . . . impatience and restlessness . . .
| - August 14 - | |
| You are very independent and fearless. You have a lot of pride in yourself, and have confidence that you can do anything you put your mind to. |  |
Positive Traits:
cooperative, versatile, organized, analytical, curious | |
Negative Traits:
impatience, restlessness, rebellious, irresponsible, breaking promises | |
Maybe it is just a restless desire for change and excitement!
God knows I have earned it . . .
I'm another year older and life is passing me by :(
God knows I have earned it . . .
I'm another year older and life is passing me by :(
