That is me, off in lala land, still thinking about chocolate and became obsessed with the news coverage for the missing lady.
This is the "too much freedom" of retired life and not really having anything to do that has to be done now. You can also call it procrastination. In Italian, we say "domani" . . . I'm not sure about the spelling, but it translates to "tomorrow." My mom and I have a running joke about the domani mentality.
The grief waves have also been hitting me, giving me the feeling of anything and everything can wait until domani. I don't care. It is a blessing that I am retired!
I'm thinking of a new blog about animals, dogs in particular with an emphasis on pet grief since I miss my Kiki so much. The feeling that I have to be careful when I walk because she is right there by my feet every step of the way. After 15 years of having to watch my steps is a habit that is a blessing and a curse.
Anyway, I drown my sorrows in internet articles about this and that, getting lost there. The result is a flood of new blog posts. It is truly my therapy about stuff that interests me that I hope will take over my attention. It is not all miserable, trust me. It is just a real depiction of life after so much loss since I never got over the loss of my first husband over 20 years ago, getting married again and then he passes away, then my sweet little dog who helped me through the first year after The Captain passed away, got sick and I had to put her to sleep.
Oh yeah, and Hurricane Irma put a tree on my house that has made half of my house still messed up. I try to find humor in every situation and have faith and trust in God that he will get me through it.
I'm not looking for sympathy. This blog is great therapy to let out how I am feeling and hopefully helping someone else going through the same thing. No matter who you are, you will experience grief and it will come back like waves in the ocean, coming and going in its own time. The depiction of real life is what is important. We need to accept it to get through it.
I hope my life experiences help you get through a struggle. It helps to know you are not alone.
Bless you all!
