Gratitude is the capacity to stare doubt, loss, chaos and despair right in the eye and say, ‘I am still here.’ |
Diana Butler Bass  I have seen all of the doubt, loss, chaos and have seen despair. Been there, done that and I am still here. I got through most of it and I knew I would, even though it was rough going through it all. It got me down, depressed and emotionally knocked me down for a while. Even though I knew I would get through it, at the time I was not strong enough to fight it. I'm still not over certain things, but I have gotten up again and am trying to get through them. Why I can't just get up and be "normal" again, "just do it" some people tell me . . . I can't. I can only keep trying and get mad at myself when it is even difficult to get up and try. The part of being grateful is that after the last decade or two of my life I can still get up again and try. I'm grateful for what I can do and how I feel now. And most of the time I have the strength to try to be what most people call "normal" . . . whatever that is. Who is the "judge" of normal and can tell you the description? LOL . . . Everyone thinks they are the judge! Some people even decided they know enough about "normal" to hurtfully judge me. I KNOW THAT GOD KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT "NORMAL" IS AND HE IS GUIDING ME TO IT IN HIS TIME. GOD IS THE ONLY JUDGE. I'M GRATEFUL THAT HE IS AND I TRUST HIM! It is all a part of life's tests. We all have to go through them. We react to situations differently too. All I know is that I am still here!  |