At this time in my life, I can look back and see how far I've moved forward. I've learned that it is good to look back as you are moving forward . . . it answers the question "What I gained, what it'd cost?"
This post is another that looks back at a time of confusing life circumstances. Looking back makes me realize that I am almost myself again.
"'Cause you could spend your life
Lookin' for your own reflection
Time could blur the lines
Between what's real
And what's projected
Had I known what I lost?
What I gained, what it'd cost
I'd still give what remains
To be myself again"
Lookin' for your own reflection
Time could blur the lines
Between what's real
And what's projected
Had I known what I lost?
What I gained, what it'd cost
I'd still give what remains
To be myself again"
This post was
originally published
on May 28, 2008
The featured song "Be Myself Again" from Donna Summer's new release, Crayons, seems like it was written for me at this time in my life.
Often the strongest decisions come out of the worst situations.
It's those bad circumstances that often give the fuel of desire the greatest power.
Unfortunately, with many people, once the desire is born, they continue looking back to justify the desire by pointing out how bad things are - and when they look back, they are not moving forward and focusing upon the way things should be.
Then the inner struggle begins and the fuel of desire loses its power . . . we do it to ourselves.
What actually goes wrong? Not the situation itself . . . it is what is done with it.
You imagine it, dream it, amplify it, look for evidence of it, talk about it, find the feeling place of it, hold yourself in the vibration of it and you keep "it" alive.
The practice is known as the "pity party" or "dwelling in the past", has no value since the lesson should have already been learned. The harder the fall, the more difficult it is to let go . . . why?
Is "the fall" a prize to be held up and adorned like a trophy?
Of course not! Throw it away . . .
Donna Summer | Be Myself Again
Lyrics
Let me introduce myself
I'm a woman that you've never seen
You might know me from somewhere else
As someone that I've never been
I gave everything to play the game
My soul fell apart at the seams
I fell down like a house of cards
When somebody pulled the queen
'Cause you could spend your life
Lookin' for your own reflection
Time could blur the lines
Between what's real
And what's projected
Had I known what I lost?
What I gained, what it'd cost
I'd still give what remains
To be myself again
You must believe me when I say
Don't live someone else's design
Turn it around like a photograph
The writings been there all the time
Now you can have all
These hopes and dreams
The ones I can't use anymore
I don't know what it is you lost
But I hope you got what you came for
Sometimes I want to leave right now
Sometimes I want to cry out loud
I want to let it all hang out
But I don't want to let you down
Sometimes I want to just lay here
Sometimes I want to disappear
I want to show you all my fear
But I don't want to let you down
Lyrics
I'm a woman that you've never seen
You might know me from somewhere else
As someone that I've never been
I gave everything to play the game
My soul fell apart at the seams
I fell down like a house of cards
When somebody pulled the queen
'Cause you could spend your life
Lookin' for your own reflection
Time could blur the lines
Between what's real
And what's projected
Had I known what I lost?
What I gained, what it'd cost
I'd still give what remains
To be myself again
You must believe me when I say
Don't live someone else's design
Turn it around like a photograph
The writings been there all the time
Now you can have all
These hopes and dreams
The ones I can't use anymore
I don't know what it is you lost
But I hope you got what you came for
Sometimes I want to leave right now
Sometimes I want to cry out loud
I want to let it all hang out
But I don't want to let you down
Sometimes I want to just lay here
Sometimes I want to disappear
I want to show you all my fear
But I don't want to let you down