An old love from the past had come back into my life. It was an unresolved issue that haunted me most of my adult life. He had joined the military and never came back . . . well, not until many years after I became a widow. We had a second chance for a future together when he came back into my life through Classmates.com after all those years.
To make a long story short . . .
I walked away after determining that we were never meant to be.
To make a long story short . . .
I walked away after determining that we were never meant to be.
Although I was heartbroken, my wise decision brought the closure and resolution to one of the biggest heartaches of my youth. At the time, I didn't see my decision as one of the greatest blessings of my life.
The irony of life and holding on to hope and faith . . .
One door closes and another opens!
The Captain came into my life shortly after my decision to just walk away from what I determined was not my destiny and I wrote the following post. There were no expectations, The Captain and I developed an awesome friendship that eventually turned into love and forever.
I'm grateful that no one tried to STOP ME!
I have always held firmly to the thought
that each one of us can do a little to
bring some portion of misery to an end.
(Albert Schweitzer)
that each one of us can do a little to
bring some portion of misery to an end.
(Albert Schweitzer)
Isn't that the truth?
Don't we sometimes perpetuate our own misery?
Don't we sometimes perpetuate our own misery?
I've caught myself midstream into a pity party and have finally been able to pick myself up in the midst of getting to that miserable place. It is an example of what we can learn to do in order to stop that vicious cycle of misery and finally bring it to an end.
Slaying the dragon . . .
it has been one of my biggest demons
In light of recent developments in my life that seems to be another vicious cycle . . . circumstances that make me deliriously happy and feeling as though I'm walking on clouds only to make my ascent from the heavenly clouds abrupt and painful. The disappointments keep happening.it has been one of my biggest demons
Do I turn off that part of me that thoroughly enjoys expectations of happiness after such a long period of grief and misery? Every time I'm disappointed I go back and readdress expectations in my life. Next time I am going on about how happy I am . . . STOP ME . . . it is like the kiss of death.
Must I turn off that part of me that feels joy because romantic history continues to repeat itself and I always end up more unhappy than before the joy happened? Next time I am going on about feeling joy . . . STOP ME . . . it is like the kiss of death.
I'm learning to forget about great expectations . . . and to me, that is so very sad . . . it is part of the beauty and allure of the quest for love and romance . . . and so much a part of who I am.
