The first thing that came to mind was my faith in God. It makes me stronger no matter what others may think.
Yes, I have terrible anxiety which makes me very fearful of so many things and there are many things I have not done in my life because of it. My Christianity is often questioned because of this, which really makes me angry. However, when it comes down to it, my faith in God keeps me feeling safe regardless of how it sounds. I guess it can also be explained as choosing your battles. And I definitely choose my own no matter what.
One thing I hate more than anything in this life is having to explain myself to others. I've had to explain myself all of my life. Guess you could say it is a sore spot that also keeps me from doing some things. My intuition tells me not to and I've learned to listen. That keeps me safe in a way I can't explain as does being true to myself.
Then I go back to thinking about what "safe" really means. I keep my feelings and emotions "safe" from being hurt by simply staying away from the thing that disturbs me. Physically "safe" means just staying home and away from the general public.
Sometimes I think I'm lost, but it is a lie my emotions tells myself during bad times. I always make it through. But maybe it is because I acknowledge my feelings and try to figure out how to deal with it. It is never about feeling sorry for myself.
I've finally reached the place in my life where I don't care what others think about me and the way I live my life.
Memories . . . even the bad ones. They contribute to who I am. I don't really know why they keep me safe, but they do. Maybe because they prove that I am a survivor going way back. They also prove to me that good times do exist, even after bad times. And they are reminders of what happiness meant to me. Important reminders in life.
The main thing is self-acceptance and love.
